Hmmm, it’s the last Tuesday of January, the day I’ve dedicated to the NaBloPoMo theme “change,” and I don’t know what to say.
So many things are changing for me right now. I just want to crawl under my blankets and wake up with all the hard work done and my life set up the way it’s supposed to be. I understand that you are supposed to pray to God for advice and guidance when you are faced with a difficult decision, but what do you do when there is no answer? I have been praying about the same question for 6 years now, and when no answer came the first time, I had to make the best decision I knew how to make. I continue to pray for guidance, and I still don’t know what to do, even though the same problem exists and has shown no signs of alleviation. I’m not trying to say that God doesn’t answer prayers, I’m asking what do you do when the problem that has been the subject of your prayers for years is reaching a head, and cannot continue on the same path without dire consequences for an innocent bystander?
I understand that if there is anything in your life that may cause you to be less of a Christian you are supposed to get rid of it, but what if that something is also something that the Bible says you should never get rid of? I know I am talking in secret Bible code, and hopefully those of you that are well-versed in the Bible will understand what I’m talking about here.
What should I do if change is forced upon me? What if I think change is the best solution, but God hasn’t given me the go-ahead? What if I never get the answer from Him, but instead continue to live in a desperate situation? I need someone to tell me what to do, and tell me it will be okay in the long run. I just don’t think I can continue under these circumstances.